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Andreea Monica
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Hello, i know that no one will read this, but i will try to write what i want to say.No, it's not about being hurt in love or something dramatic.I just wanted to ask, if there's someone who give'd up on study because it's not going to help?or if there is someone who was abused at school?Or if someone had finish the school/highschool but getting a mental problem or a bad feeling inside?Cuz i fell like i'm the only one who really wanted to escape from this "jail" called school.I don't know if i told my story or if someone knows it, but i will try to write it short.Everything started when i was 6 years old, i had a problem with polyps, i couldn't breathe or sleep withouth feeling suffocated.I went to hospital with my family and try to fix the problem.The doctors said to my mom that i don't need anesthesia cuz he saw me as a dutiful person and it won't be complicated.It came the day sugery, it was night and it was late, my mom woke me up and said " we have to go, it will be fine i promise".I didn't knew what was going to happen next, and then i saw that we are going to hospital.I tough my mom or my dad had a problem, but then i heard that i was the only one with a problem.All i saw ..while i was walking on the hall..i will never forget, it was a dead child lying on a bed and his mother was crying.I got scared and i didn't wanted to know if i was going to be the next.I went in a white room, one bed, and my family.While i was talking with my parents, a nurse camed and took me away without saying something.And everything i saw for the next hours...it was a nightmare.The nurse tied me to a chair, the doctor was wearing a mask and holding something that was looking like an eyelash curling (but it wasn't lol).He sarted to take out the infected flesh from my nose, but he introduced the instrument in my mouth, inside my neck.It was horrible, it didn't hurt, he make me a local anesthesia.After two weeks from that experience, my hair began to fall out..and he fall and he fall..and my head was looking like a light bulb.And the school was comming..i was so scared for what was people going to say, but the situation got much difficult.Everyone was making jokes, laugh, and torture me day by day, a lot of boys tried to beat me.I just wanted to learn something, but i didn't, because of my class mates and because of my ignorant teachers.I didn't had friends, just one.Everyone tough it was a funny thing to not have hair..but it wasn't.I wanted to suicide when i was 13 years old, after trying several medicine and spending years in different hospitals without any results.But then a miracle happened.After two years without taking medicine, my hair just began to grow, in three months i got it back.And of course that everyone sarted talking to me but i didn't gived them attention for what they have done to me.
In conclusion i wasted 8 years from my life, without laugh, smile and my childhood was ruined.
The highschool is the most difficult, hard and horrible experience that someone could ever have.I wanted so bad to go back in time and change the highschool from the list, and go somewhere else but not in there..but then i discovered that in every highschool are the same persons.
  i went to highschool art, were i was ready to meet artists and passionate people.But all i saw fromt he first day, it was a bunch of b****es and wanna be fancy people.Fromt the first day i tried to talk to everyone like a normal person and make friends, but i was making enemies..everyone was obssesed with alcohol, parties, clubs and drugs.I was the only one from that class who was working individual.But then a girl was kicked out from highschool for being too absent and her friend started talking to me ( it was a little strange,,she didn't used to talk to me).Then i discovere'd the truth, the real reason why that girl was kicke'd out it was for being too absent, but she was absent because of drugs.She suffered in love and began to take those..things.I built a friendship with that girl, and everyone from that class began talking to me ( lol and then i discovered that my friend was popular).And...at the end of the year a dated a guy, and after two days a stupid girl from my class tried to insult me without reason and i shout her mouth in two words, and she got so angry that the next day she came and pulled my hair, and she was screaming at me and i got so f***g scared i didn't knew how to react and escape and i scratched it on her arms till she got bleeding but not much.She went to our teacher and start to lie about me, and i tried so much to explain that she just came  and pulled my hair and i had problems and i got scared not just for losing hair again, i was scared that she was so damn angry she could hit my head against the walls (we were in the schoolyard and everyone from my class was martors, but of course that they love'd her so much, they were supporting her in that day) and who got innocent in the end?Her! and then i discovered the reason why she did that, it was because of that guy i was dating..she wanted him and her mother gived money to the director!.And here it come de 11th grade, my friend began to hit me from the back trying to stole every guy i was getting (even if the guy was ugly) and she was with someone in that year, and everyone was still hattin me.Our teacher sarted to look at me with bad eyes, she didn't wanted to talk to me.The teachers were all new and they were so young they didn't tried a little hard to teach us what we need.At the end of the year, my "friend" and i were like strangers...she became a good friend for one of my ex boyfriends ( who was and he is still a loser and a sexual maniac) and i...i sarted to think too much and put myself in a bad mood.
  The 12 grade was the hardest...stress, pressure, hate all around, stupid teachers, and stupid directors who speak the money language.I didn't had time to sleep or eat, i was reading stupid arguments that i was and i will still not gonna use them, drawing all the time and every idea that i had till my head got empty and my teacher was still not proud (but she was proud of those who was taking pictures from tumblr and draw them without knowing)..i tried to be original.I was busy all the time going in different stores to take the things i need for the final exam in my domain (design), my dad was always annoying me at home, my aunt was annoying too she was calling me everyday to study with her.I was in a war with my past friend, who still trying to cut me and hurt me from the back trying to stole my new friends.Our teacher was so stupid she told my father that im too lonely because im jealous on my past friend who is with my ex boyfriend, i was lonely because no one didn't care'd about me.My hair began to fall again because of stress and pressure and of course that everyone from highschool was laughing at me.That past friend ruined my reputation at everyone trying to invent rumors and make ruin my life.AND AFTER ALL THIS EFFORT, i took the final exam in my domain, but i've lost at the finals...and i've learned..and today i was thinking about this...4 years wasted from my teenage years...i didn't learn nothing because of my teachers, and i didn't knew how is to live in a group and go out, i didn't knew how is to be appreciate...all i've learned was how much drugs to take and wich drugs, with how much guys i should have sex with and what kind of alcohol to drink, lol im not doin't that, im not for this.But see?What school learn us?Lectures?I can chose what i want to read!History?Its past, we live in present and we have to get ready for the future, who want to read the past do it! but do it for your pleasure and for your interest.Nobody educates us!My teachers used to be a bunch of losers, who didn't care'd to teach us something, that's why i've lost the finals, because i wasn't teach'd well!i've learned the wrong things...and a lot of my class mates give'd money to take the finals...so i will give up on school and study...why i should waste another 3 years from my life going to a stupid college?I used to make plans and then i've heard a lot of horrible things about art college...and then i saw a list with the most bad college from my town and the art college was the frist from that list..im going to find a job anyway, cuz' going to college is like wasting 3 years for the same things and finally going to work...im sick of being poor and hungry.And im sick of this "holly" and "happy" and "innocent" place called school...its hell on earth.And now guess what, instead of losing precious time, i've lost my accent, now i can't speak correctly, i can't sleep without having nightmares and i can't walk normally on the street without fearing everything around me.And now im asking again..is there someone who had the same experience as me?...
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